[Uglyducklin]

A aargh I'm disgusting and fat it is suffocating me. My mum made me have not my usual safe things and sat with me while I had them both! I'm horrified by this loss of control. I feel hideous I need to be punished. I saw the psychiatrist and she suggested two drugs aripiprazole and another painkiller used for anxiety. I really am too afraid to take those. She also suggested promethazine which has been useful. She explained I will remain with the SEEDS team after my discharge and that the step up to recovery programme might also be an option. I'm too fat and don't deserve it. I need to go to uni but I feel so anxious and low I'm scared I will cry. Sorry I'm being pathetic x