I have failed because I'm too fat and I'm not at uni because I have a chest infection and no voice. My mum is worried we argued as I said I should drag myself in I'm so fat and selfish she said she didn't want to worry about me when she has her own stuff to worry about. I am failing as a student and as an anorexic. I feel I don't deserve to breathe. Both of these things upset me but the latter has the edge. I hate myself. I need to call uni as my head is spinning from being so tired and I'm terrified I've fallen so far behind I will never catch up ! I see the psychiatrist tomorrow and I look like a beached whale. I don't know how to make her believe me x
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