so you can find time to post like a million pictures on myspace but you can't find time to read my new entry (that you've known about for over a week) or reply to the email i sent a week ago. OR even look up the train times for tomorrow. you'll end up getting the normal train and probably missing it knowing you, then i'll hardly get to see you at all. god you anger me so much sometimes. you say you don't have time. but you so obviously do it's so frustrating. i hated you for a whole second. i can't believe you. but i still can't get you off that pedestal in my head. i bet you haven't even noticed that i haven't texted you at all today. probably don't care. and i shouldn't care that you don't. but i do. god i hate myself for loving you so much. sometimes you cause the hurt. yet you tell me you'd be upset if i cut again. like you're gonna be able to guilt me into not doing it. i don't do it for MYSELF. not for anyone else. and that's the way it's gonna stay. maybe i should try guilting YOU into making time for me. not that it'd work. i still love you. how can i not. :(
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