When I first started, I think it was connected with coming to terms with my sexuality, hating the fact that I had to hide it and then also because I realised that I was never going to see one of my crushes ever again.
Then I stopped. A bit later, I found myself in the same destructive vicious circle, but this time for different reasons. I didn't know it at the time, but I was (am) depressed. I was using self-harm as a way of dealing with the numb feeling, as a punishment or to deal with stress. It's something I still struggle with, but I'm learning to cope in other ways.
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