I always self harmed for a variety of reasons, varying with each SI/SH episode as well as with time. I've done it recently out of a sense of self-hatred and punishment because I, believing what I was told in anger, believed that I shouldn't feel how I'd been feeling and in that sense it was to control my feelings (depression and anxiety) and to punish out of anger aimed at myself at having them in the first place.
I've also SI'd because I was depressed and wanted the depression to just go away because I knew it was getting in the way. I frequently SI because I'm overwhelmed or anxious and use it as a way to relieve the tension and anxiety.
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