I'm fed up.
Why does it have to be like this? Why do I feel like I'm good for nothing? why does nothing ever go right?
Why do I have to eat until I feel like I'm about to throw up without even trying..why? I feel so disgusting right now, I just wish I could go to the bathroom and get rid of the ****ing food in my stomach. But I can't because mom would hear and she can't know...no I'm trying hard to convince her everything is alright..
I promise, I promise I won't eat tomorrow.
I'm sorry, S. , I'm just not good enough...I'm sorry I can't listen to your advice, I'm sorry I am like this...I'm sorry, I can't eat anymore.
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