Would you say you don;t want to get better, or that you don't think you can get better. Sometimes, especially when you are slogging through therapy, it just seems like too much damn hard work to get better. Maybe this is affecting you?
Or do you think you might want to get worse so they will step in and help you in someway that will make you better?
Just some theories I thought I'd throw out there, no worries if I'm completely wrong.
I know its very hard to lvie with no purpose, I have been there, in a dead end job with nothing but depression, but it is possible to work through it and find some goals, even small ones, for example I recently started volunteer work, it's just 2 hours a week but it's something to do and I go out for dinner afterwards with my parents which is something to look forward to.
I don't know what else to say,but I really feel for you. Ryl is always here if you need to talk about anything.
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