I can totally relate to this. I ended up over £2,000 in debt with an online store account. My need to buy is huge. A part of that is impulsivity, but I also buy for and treat my family as a way of me trying to make up for how i am and for all my failings. It was a big step for me to own up to my husband about my debt and we have dealt with it and i have closed down and cancelled my account. I am still reckless, but not as much. Ive now got a little of that ''I shouldnt be doing this'' feeling when i really need to spend/buy. It brings me somuch happiness to spend...but it also brings so much anguish
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