[lost_and_found]

I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and bulimia. I have been on various medications, gone through several years of therapy, and have been hospitalized twice for suicide attempts.

I am in college now, and I am being required by the university to see a psychiatrist and therapist on a weekly basis... But I don't see the point.

I don't want to get better. I don't want to stay this way and hurt everyone around me, but I just want it all to be over. I am not going to attempt suicide again... I just don't see the point of therapy. It seems like there is nothing left to talk about. I don't think I am a bad person or a failure, and I don't hate myself. I just don't want to live.

I feel like I have made no progress in therapy for the past year because this is who I am. I have no goals or ambitions anymore, and I truly don't think that this is the depression speaking. I just don't see a point in living, and I don't see why I would continue to live with no purpose.

I don't feel hopeless about the future... but I have no hopes for my future.

Is it even worth it for me to keep going to therapy?