First, congratulations on being six months free. :)
I can relate to what you're feeling. I saw a dermatologist to see about scar removal/reduction and ended up getting several treatments of steroid injections to flatten the scars I have. The appearance of my scars is much better than it was, however, occasionally I regret the treatment, not because I am unhappy with the results or because it hasn't helped my recovery (it has) but because I feel like I've hidden what used to be a big part of my life. Also, if I'm being honest, I still get urges, and I always worry that I will render the treatments useless by slipping up, however, it's motivation to stay clean for me, the fact that it signifies I'm moving forward.
So you're not alone with what you're feeling. You're moving forward, and you don't need scars (although I understand your thinking and why they feel significant) to represent your history and your story, no one can take those away from you and the fact that you've come so far.
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