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scars
i had quite severe scarring up and down both arms, large purple scars, people stared. my mom said if i could stay 6 months self harm free i could see a plastic surgeon and get my scars removed..
i did it..i saw the surgeon..and i had 2 major surgeries which will take a year or more to heal..but the end result will be a very small white line scar..
i regret it..almost..i think..im not sure....
im glad people wont stare at them..or if they do they wont be obviously self harm scars..but they were my history..my life..my story..and i just got rid of it..and now i dont know what to do because i cant get them back..and i dont REALLY want them back..im happy with the choice i made..
it just feels like ive blotched out part of my life..i dont know..im just confused.
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