You have no idea how much your words have comforted me. Thank you so very much for assuring me that my illness was/is still important and that I am still important even though I was not treated with the same extent of care. It's hard to believe those things, but having someone come out and say it directly does help.
It also helps to have the perspective of someone who had to go to the hospital themselves, so thank you. I know I should be grateful for never having to go, but it's hard to convince myself that it wouldn't have been a good thing without hearing from someone else that it's really not desirable.
I am actually scheduled to see my regular therapist - not through my school - tomorrow, which I am very very grateful for. Because of scheduling conflicts and unavailability, I have not been able to have therapy for a month, and I feel like I am long overdue. I hope that talking through some of this helps a bit.
Also, my roommate was allowed to come back for the following school week. On one hand, I am extremely happy and relieved that she is well enough to return, yet on the other hand, I fear that things will be awkward and difficult for a while. I will of course do my best to support her, but I always fear asking too much or offering too much support. I don't want to be smothering, but I don't want it to seem like I don't care either.
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