[madman]

So... There are few reasons why I am so afraid of people. Lets start:
Firstly I have always been very introverted and my class was very extroverted. It started that in group of some people usually I was just sitting and didnt say a word. In the beginning they told why you dont talk at all? I answered "I dont know" and smiled. I was always normal kid just pretty quiet. I was good at sports. Others liked me. I wasnt talking much during the lessons or asking questions and because of it my classmates started to tell teachers that I am just very shy, quiet and usually I dont talk at all. So embarassing... They were making fun of few people but especially of me cause I was shy. When teacher asked who speaks loud, they ALWAYS focused on me and laughed and everybody knew that wasn’t me but it was funny for them… When we were sitting in locker room or anywhere few guys always focused on me and told “look at him, he doesn’t talk at all” and everyone laughed or “don’t be shy, say “f***”.
When we were with older “cool” guys few of my classmates pointed at me and said “you know that he doesn’t say one word during whole day? Haha” (ofc i did but less than others or “[my name] hey, can you tell us a joke or say something funny? Im just joking I forgot that he can’t talk, haha” Then older guys treated me like a freak and during the break came to me and said embarrassing question “you really never say anything?” whole school laughed at me ;(
In my previous school Ive had a reputation of the most polite guy in the class/maybe school... For example if sometimes I couldnt stand it and I punched somebody or swore cause they were making fun of me they pretended to be schocked: "Wow 0.0 first time I heard he swore, I cant believe it. It was out of habit. They dont understand that I am normal guy like them. Nothing changed for 9 years. I still have the same reputation even if I changed a little bit myself they remember everything. They like to make fun of me in front of public. I see on facebook that make new friends. I dont.
They often comment photos on facebook with me "hes the best hehehe" or "look at him haha"
Everyone was laughing at me and my behaviour.

1.So there are few people who make fun of everyone, they think they are cool, better than others. There is smaller group of victim (including me). We are not pussies but nobody can do anything against group of respected people I think everybody is scared of them. Girls like them...
2.Even in group of "victims" I dont feel safe cause even they sometimes joke "you are too polite, you cant drink beer 0.o","you can talk 0.o". I feel so weak around anybody from previous school.
3.Because of some people, one stupid blonde girl told few older girls that I dont talk at all. These girls look at me like Im a freak since then.

Im 18 Im normal guy, the truth is that when I was 8 sometimes I was really just sitting and listening to others for an hour without even saying word. I changed myself but I still have the same reputation of polite, not talkative guy. Everyone remembers me as quiet, poor guy. Sad. I dont think its gonna change ;( I am still afraid of the same people since 9 years... I rarely go out. Just go to new school or shop. I dont wanna go out with my new classmates cause Im afraid of "bullies", generally I go anywhere alone but then they think I am weak and have no friends... I feel safe only when I go out with my family. Thats why Ive been always afraid of facebook. I feel like everyone laughs at me or if they had to focus on just one person they would always focus on me. I need a psychologist... Pls anwer. Facebook was first step to solve problems. Im gonna do everything to have better life.