Indeed you're the one paying, if it happened to me and they said "This is Richard, he will be sitting in the back observing" I'd be like..... Not in this car he isn't.. Buh bye lol.
I have started listening to motivational videos on youtube to try and get that fire burning and the feeling of I can do anything, sometimes it works and sometimes I think yeah right... Lol. I think the fact they have control makes me much more anxious, I feel better when I know I am in full control, I feel it really helps my concentration but when the instructor slams the breaks on when I already have it covered it kinda beats the confidence out of me.
I like the idea of asking myself questions at least then my brain is engaged and I'm not slipping into pure darkness which is what tends to happen when my anxiety kicks in. When I have my next lesson I will try and put it into effect, I kinda have an understanding of what to expect but we had to cut my mock test short as I had two panic attacks and he deemed me unfit to continue.
I'm dreading the independent driving part, bah I'm dreading all of it! Lol.