I found its probably called personality disorder. I know the reason. Few guys who live close to me were making fun of few people, especially at me cause I was the most quiet.
It depends on the situation and people but sometimes I feel confident, arrogant and very talkative, sometimes I want to hide from people as much as I can.
I dont know is it true or not but I imagine the situation and think if they had to talk about only ONE guy or make fun of somebody they would ALWAYS focus on me. For many many years people were making of me
Thats why I cant make new friends. Because of them I have a reputation of so quiet, not talkative guy. Everyone remembers how classmates treated me during camps for example.
I am afraid of going out with new friends because I am afraid I will meet someone from my last school and they will start to laugh at me or something.
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