Thanks for answer :)! Ive just invited my family. I hope everything is gonna be fine.
When I was 8 I was strange, not talkative maybe funny kid and they were making so much fun of me. One guy says "Look he doesn't talk at all" and everyone among laughs. I don't think its funny. They had many reasons to laugh at me. Anyway it hurt me. But we were getting older I was normal, quiet guy and the same people still were laughing hard at me. They just looked at me and laugh. Sometimes feel like there is really something wrong with me. I was trying to avoid them outside of school as much as I could.
For example imagine daily situation in locker room: There was my class and other. There was silence. Nobody had nothing to say. This awkward moment when few guys from my class (for no reason) pick on me and start to say among all "hey [my name] how are you"? I said Im fine. "Do you know any good jokes?" and they smile. I said "unfortunately not". They said "hey, was it this joke? It was pretty funny :D haha, got it" and everybody in locker room laughed at me. I felt ashamed and embarrassed. They laughed at everything I did. Always, ALWAYS. It was everyday but often they were humiliating me in more cruel way... Then more people treated me like a freak. They were making me look more quiet and outcast than I actually was.
So faceboook was the scariest thing I could have. I imagined if I were on facebook they would laugh at me among tens of thousands people or even more. Some day I cried at home and said to myself "Enough". I thought that I have nothing to lose. I cant stand that outside of my home they still tell embarrassing things about me. I want to start new life.They were shocked that I am on facebook. Its not as bad as I thought.
I want to get 2 things:
1.stop calling me shy/quiet/a guy who doesn't talk at all and making fun of it.
2.generally stop talking about me, abusing me and laughing at everthing I do.
What about my 18th birthday? Should I invite some people from my previous school school and second one? I am a little bit afraid of some people. Maybe only from new school?
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