I know exactly what you're going through...before I transferred to a different school I was practically tortured like you were during school. They'd always call me shy and awkward and weird and it hurt so. Freaking. Much. They'd laugh at me when I talked and laugh at me when I didn't!! So confusing! I'm sort of better now that I'm 16 and at a new school, but I mostly don't go out and just go home like you do. Although this year I have to go to games to work at the concession stand so I've been kind of forced to be out there and talk to strangers and what not.
I'm proud of you for joining Facebook an inviting people. 70 is quite the number! To answer your question, I think you should start with inviting family on Facebook and see how you feel after. If you're comfortable with some people from your school then invite away! If not, no worries :) they weren't exactly the nicest to you so I wouldn't blame you if you didn't want to communicate with them. What about the girl at your school who was shy like you? Have you tried communicating with her and seeing how her days went? I bet you two could share stories and get through your anxieties together.
I hope all is well and I'm here if you need to talk on PM! :)
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