Depression IS a toughie. I've lived with it for more years than I can shake a packet of anti-depressants at. BUT, saying that, it's not forever. Really it's not. For myself, as I work in therapy and continue taking the meds and continue reaching out when things are hellish, the deepest lows last for less time and I understand them better, and manage the rest of my life around them better. Also, not everyone gets things as 'chronically' as I experience, everyone is different.
You're approaching a really big transition in your life. Things're bound to feel wobbly and insecure and scary. As you find your feet in your new ground, things will very likely settle. But that may take some time. Be prepared for that and have some support in place as soon as you can.
I don't think you've been useless at all. Your caring is still very much present, I feel it. Just, you really do need to care about yourself right now. Can you think of some safe ways to do this?
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