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PaleMoon · 23-08-2012, 03:00 AM

Today I had this long, drawn-out thought of me being raped, and cut over and over. It was extremely vivid, like a flashback, and it just wouldn't stop.

The thing is, this particular instance I kept imagining never actually happened to me. I know this for a fact. I know this because I was continually tweaking the details mentally. It was like a daydream, but it was not pleasant at all. It was extremely distressing, but I couldn't make it stop. I wasted hours at work focusing on it. I could focus on other things for a while, but it would always pick up where it left off eventually. These "daydreams" happen every so often.

I'm extremely frustrated with myself, because I have a lot of detailed work to do at my job, and it's interfering. It also just feels pointless. Why am I wasting time focusing on something that never actually happened? Am I just overdramatic and attention-seeking?

I guess my basic question is, does this sound familiar to anyone else? What do you do to help with it?

23-08-2012, 03:00 AM	#1
PaleMoon Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: Missouri, USA I am currently:	Vivid thoughts, but not a flashback Today I had this long, drawn-out thought of me being raped, and cut over and over. It was extremely vivid, like a flashback, and it just wouldn't stop. The thing is, this particular instance I kept imagining never actually happened to me. I know this for a fact. I know this because I was continually tweaking the details mentally. It was like a daydream, but it was not pleasant at all. It was extremely distressing, but I couldn't make it stop. I wasted hours at work focusing on it. I could focus on other things for a while, but it would always pick up where it left off eventually. These "daydreams" happen every so often. I'm extremely frustrated with myself, because I have a lot of detailed work to do at my job, and it's interfering. It also just feels pointless. Why am I wasting time focusing on something that never actually happened? Am I just overdramatic and attention-seeking? I guess my basic question is, does this sound familiar to anyone else? What do you do to help with it?
	My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :) I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.