Rach I don't think what Em said was meant as a guilt trip, and I think part of why you took it as that is you know what she said is true.
Lets look at the positives, Your son who you adore got asked by a girl to go to a dance and as a result your aunt (who you clash with majorly) is adding you back on facebook, not for five minutes but for good!
You heard this news and, whilst you feel like crap, you are holding on!
You are coming up to a major anniversary in your life which is making like hard(er) but, again, you are holding on!
You underestimate how strong you are. Yes it is incredibly hard for you to know that Keith is going through this without you right there. But know that if you hadn't had the strength in the first place to ask your aunt and uncle to take him in and raise him, things could be very very different. Kaleb is not a replacement for Keith and I know that. But he can use all the love you have in your heart. Keith will always love you. Always. Things are different yes. But never doubt that what you did was the greatest and hardest decision that you will ever have to make in your life. And you made it for the best and most wonderful person in your life!
I love you rach. You have come through so much.
Head down, middle finger up, and march forward.
F*ck the world sweetheart! You can do this.
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