I'm sorry that you ended up self-harming, I know it can be really difficult to deal with. I don't think you're back to square one though. This doesn't take away the time you managed without it, or the times when you did manage to resist the urges. And even if it doesn't feel like it right now, I bet that you will have learned something from that, and that you can pick yourself up and keep trying, and keep making steps forward.
Is there anything in particular that's been making things so difficult lately, that might have triggered this? What have you found that's helped so far? Keep working on finding other ways to cope; it is a long process and it can be so frustrating but it should pay off in the end.
I don't know if you have any help/support at the moment, but if not maybe it would be something to think about. Sometimes having a bit of support can help you break the cycle, and stop it seeming so repetitive and hopeless, even if it's just talking to a friend or something.
Take care of yourself, I hope you feel better soon.
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