I miss partying so much!!!! Just careless and free. Not giving a **** about anything. Being crazy and out of control. I get so happy just remembering. Such out of the world fun. mind blowing happiness.
drugs.. alcohol.. it's crazy what they can do to us. and the people and music. crazy stuff happening. I miss it a lot but yeah... it became too unhealthy for me :(
I decided I'm just an extreme person. either I'm all in or I'm out. So since I can't get so ****ed up anymore without having long term negative health consequences, I'm out. but I do miss it though
sometimes I long for anything to alter my mental status.... stupid antidepressant pills. can't even get drunk anymore. it's better for my future life. oh but i do miss it so much
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