First off, big virtual *hugs* and support your way. At the minute you're fixated with these thoughts - maybe it would take the power out of them if you told someone in real life how you've been feeling? For now it's your little secret, so share it out, tell someone you trust or talk to a stranger on the phone like Samaritans. Part of you is fighting those suicidal thoughts, and it's clearly the stronger part of you. Trust it. Put the Samaritans number in your mobile so it's always accessable for you :)
I noticed in your sig it says "keep on moving". You cross this bridge every day - so I think you should go with those three little words and focus on getting to the end, and where you have to go, be it home or work or the next town.
I have faith in you, stay strong :) xo
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