Thanks for the reply,it's not that i don't want the MBT therapy,i just don't think its right for me at this time,i'd like to do more therapy based on the self harm,the reasoing behind it etc,to be able to understand myself more so i can break the cycle.
I get where your coming from re the travelling and being able to have a bath,and i'd give anything to do that,i tried and the skin broke down,blood etc,my head is just not in the right place at the moment. It is also standard practice at the burns clinic i attend to self care,i felt it was forced upon me,i went wednesday and was told it was happening from that day no warning,no preparation,i need to plan ahead if that makes sense,at the moment anything can set me off,my anixety levels are so high,even doing something as simple as deciding what to wear,can take hours,so that appt really put me in a spin.
I do want to stop,i don't want to keep burning myself,i do want help,just don't think MBT is the way for me,i know loads of people it has worked for,but i'd rather for the moment concentrate on the self harm,do that work then look into MBT,but with anything it's money my local PCT want local options explored first,my local option is MBT,even though the self harm service is run within the same Mental Health Trust,so i'm stuck the MBT is run by the Personality Disorder Team,where the self harm is run by the Crisis Recovery Unit,different boroughs different budgets,it sucks that to get help i need to be self harming daily at dangerous levels before they will even consider,treating me at the CRU. I'm meeting with my psych on tuesday so will have the disscussion again,hopefuly he will have good news,but i won't hold my breath.
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