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StupiiDx · 28-07-2012, 12:02 PM

I want to cut again, very badly. I still have all my tools and everything, but its been months since I past did it. Everyone thinks I'm okay now, but I'm not. I am so scared to go to highschool, my dad sent me to court because he didnt want to pay child support over a "Self-involved, emotionless monster who doesnt care for anyone but herself."

Anyway.. I'm past the father thing. I just want to hold onto the one thing that has been my friend since I was 11. Except this time around, I'm not as depressed, have as much anxiety, or bad feelings.. Theres not much of a reason to cut.

Help? :'<

Should I just do it?

28-07-2012, 12:02 PM	#1
StupiiDx StupiiDx Join Date: Oct 2011 Location: Rhode Island I am currently:	I want to relapse, but I dont know why? I want to cut again, very badly. I still have all my tools and everything, but its been months since I past did it. Everyone thinks I'm okay now, but I'm not. I am so scared to go to highschool, my dad sent me to court because he didnt want to pay child support over a "Self-involved, emotionless monster who doesnt care for anyone but herself." Anyway.. I'm past the father thing. I just want to hold onto the one thing that has been my friend since I was 11. Except this time around, I'm not as depressed, have as much anxiety, or bad feelings.. Theres not much of a reason to cut. Help? :'< Should I just do it?
	Refuse to feel anything at all, refuse to slip, refuse to fall, can't be weak, can't stand still, watch your back because no one else will.