It seems like you're definitely ready mentally for recovery. I've been recovering for four years (with only one very small slip up), and while it hasn't been easy, it's been worth it. The scars fade, and although you can still tell they're there, they're not as noticable.
Recovery is a lot about not just distracting yourself, but facing what you have to deal with. I know that's not easy, but it's important not to beat yourself up over slip ups. They're a part of recovery.
Try to surround yourself with people who understand or accept what you're going through, who are willing to talk you through your difficult times. Eventually it will be easier to deal with triggers, and you'll rarer and rarer feel the need to harm yourself.
One thing that I find helps is to remember the date, but not count the days. When you keep counting the days, I find it's feels like it goes a lot slower. This way, I suddenly found myself a week free, a month free, a year free! It always surprised me, and it made me feel very proud.
For me, recovery just sort of happened for me. I didn't really plan that today is going to be the last time. Instead, I told myself that I could not hurt myself for one day, one week, one month, three months and so on. That really helped for me. Small goals feels easier to overcome. Therefore, instead of saying "I will never ever self harm again" I would rather say "I will not harm myself this week."
I hope this helps. The best of luck for your future!
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