I guess I am just trying to be calm. The family dynamic is being forced to have my doctors talk to my family when you feel as though that was your safe place adnd now you cannot even get permission to go to appointments. Scarily my doctors did not seem to be making as much of an effort to come and see but they plan to, so I am trying to remain calm.
It is alot of.......it's all in your head. The only person who kept me calm was when my BFF visited, but then everyone was mocking me because they couldn't stay and threatening to take away phone priveleges. I am trying not to lose my cool again. But it is so easy. I am sneaking in this post even.
Gotta go. Thanks for the support.
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