I feel like I can't function anymore...fully admitting things today has completely broken me. I can't understand what people are saying...they have to say it more than once or I just laugh and pretend I understood. I can't read posts on here anymore...I know the words but sentances don't make sense. I can't even talk to Adam or my best friend. I've been in bed since I got home and I don't plan on getting up tomorrow. I can't face it. The only thing that makes sense to me is to keep drinking the chemicals and cutting deeper. I can't even calculate how long it's taken me to type this. Things aren't real and I don't know what to do...I was thinking of calling my social worker tomorrow but I can't get my brain to connect enough to...I don't know how I'd explain it. I don't know what to do.I just want to hurt myself enough to feel something...anything.
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