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lonely_hope · 10-07-2012, 08:47 AM

Have you ever...
1) Self harmed?
Yes

2) Got into a real fight?
Depends on what you call "real." I've never been in a fist fight or anything, but have had verbal fights.

3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed?
Yes

4) Tried to commit suicide?
Yes

5) Had to lie about how you felt?
Oh yeah

6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting?
Yup

7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble?
Yes

8) Accused someone of using you?
No

9) Shoplifted?
No

10) Gotten drunk?
No

11) Been to a concert where your favorite artist was playing?
Yes

12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game?
No

(Right now) Are you:
13) Happy?
Not particularly

14) Bored?
Not really

15) Avoiding someone?
No

16) Avoiding some task?
No

17) Depressed?
Somewhat

18) Upset?
Not quite

19) Annoyed with a friend?
No

20) Worried and confused about something important to you?
Yes

Do you:
21) Get depressed easily?
Yes

22) Get jealous/envious easily?
Not really

23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things?
Yes

24) Worry about messing up your relationships a lot?
Always

25) Try hard in all your classes at school?
Mostly

26) Go out drinking?
No

27) Smoke cigarettes?
No

28) Smoke weed?
No

29) Do any hard drugs?
No

30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why?
N/A

31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will?
Yes

32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them?
Yes >.<

33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain?
Temporarily, yes

34) Believe people deserve second chances?
Mostly

35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’?
Not really

36) Think things will get better?
Sure hope so...

37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished?
Kinda

38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest)
Hm, I really try not to be judgmental... I think I mostly just disagree, not necessarily judge

Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
39) Long hair OR short hair?
Don't care

40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs?
Nice smile

41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest?
N/A

42) Shy OR open?
Ooh... that's tough. I'm kinda shy, so maybe more open? I dunno... by boyfriend is a bit of both, do I'm not real sure.

43) Eyes OR body?
*shrugs*

44) Religious OR non-religious?
Religious

45) Caring OR non-restricting of you?
Caring

46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge?
Straight?

47) Piercings OR no piercings?
Don't care

48) Tattoos OR no tattoos?
" "

49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type?
Stay-at-home

50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with?
That's tough XD preferably both, but maybe in the long run parents

Would you:
51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk?
I don't drink...

52) Smoke weed?
Thought about it, but don't think so

53) Smoke cigarettes?
No

54) Get even with someone who betrayed you?
Hope not

55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you?
Try

56) Attempt to kill yourself?
Have

57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what?
Difficult. Currently in a weird place with that, but I try.

58) Join a band as a part time activity?
Yes

59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse?
Yes

60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them?
Yes

61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like?
Maybe

62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family?
Yes

63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online?
Haha, maybe

64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported?
Hm, would depend

65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a [so and so] to other people?
Perhaps

66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them?
No

67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them to put up with your problems?
Yes

68) Try something new even if you think you won't like it?
Yes

69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes, then which part of you and why?
No

70) Sleep naked?
No

You can only choose one:
71) Black or Orange?
Black

72) Metal core OR Post-Hardcore?
Ooh... that's hard. Maybe post-hardcore?

73) Cellphone or Computer?
Computer

74) Chocolate milk OR Coke?
Milk

75) Tumblr OR Friends?
Friends

76) Apple OR PC?
PC

77) TV Shows OR Movies?
TV shows

78) Old bands OR new Bands?
New

79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock?
Alternative

80) Reading OR Listening to music?
Music

81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice.
I honestly can't tell the difference...

82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically?
That's tough. On the one hand, I want to be authentic... but then I really don't like myself either >.< I don't know.

83) Tea OR coffee?
Neither :P Guess tea though

84) Music OR quiet?
Music

85) Emailing OR letter-writing?
Email

86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary?
Documentary

87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe?
Europe!

88) Shoes OR Shirts?
Shirts

89) Bracelets OR necklaces?
Bracelets

90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education? Define your reason for your choice.
Stay at school. I think that would just be the better option for me, as far as career choices and whatnot.

Almost over:
91) So far have you told 90 truths? And be honest.
Yes

92) Are you quiet when you are with your friends/family or are you loud/hyper/open/sociable?
Quiet. Used to be louder.

93) Do you want to travel?
Yes

94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams?
That's hard. I'd like to say no, but I'm not sure. And then again, I don't really know what dreams I do/would have.

95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions?
Yes, I was a bit surprised

96) Rather be the opposite gender?
Haha, used to want to be XD Don't anymore

97) What will you name your son/daughter?
No clue. You'd have to ask my husband XD

98) How many kids would you like, and preferably, how many girls and how many boys?
*shrugs* Thinking about adopting. Not sure I'd want to have my own kids.

99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason.
Miley Cyrus. I just don't really like her... her music, or as a person. It all just seems so fake and "teen idol."

100) What makes someone a bad person in your mind?
Being hypocritical and judgmental, maybe

101) Do you feel like you're a bad person?
Yup

10-07-2012, 08:47 AM	#9
lonely_hope I'm not worth the air I breathe Join Date: Dec 2010 Location: US I am currently:	Have you ever... 1) Self harmed? Yes 2) Got into a real fight? Depends on what you call "real." I've never been in a fist fight or anything, but have had verbal fights. 3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed? Yes 4) Tried to commit suicide? Yes 5) Had to lie about how you felt? Oh yeah 6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting? Yup 7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble? Yes 8) Accused someone of using you? No 9) Shoplifted? No 10) Gotten drunk? No 11) Been to a concert where your favorite artist was playing? Yes 12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game? No (Right now) Are you: 13) Happy? Not particularly 14) Bored? Not really 15) Avoiding someone? No 16) Avoiding some task? No 17) Depressed? Somewhat 18) Upset? Not quite 19) Annoyed with a friend? No 20) Worried and confused about something important to you? Yes Do you: 21) Get depressed easily? Yes 22) Get jealous/envious easily? Not really 23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things? Yes 24) Worry about messing up your relationships a lot? Always 25) Try hard in all your classes at school? Mostly 26) Go out drinking? No 27) Smoke cigarettes? No 28) Smoke weed? No 29) Do any hard drugs? No 30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, Why? N/A 31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will? Yes 32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them? Yes >.< 33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain? Temporarily, yes 34) Believe people deserve second chances? Mostly 35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? Not really 36) Think things will get better? Sure hope so... 37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished? Kinda 38) (be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest) Hm, I really try not to be judgmental... I think I mostly just disagree, not necessarily judge Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend: 39) Long hair OR short hair? Don't care 40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs? Nice smile 41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest? N/A 42) Shy OR open? Ooh... that's tough. I'm kinda shy, so maybe more open? I dunno... by boyfriend is a bit of both, do I'm not real sure. 43) Eyes OR body? shrugs 44) Religious OR non-religious? Religious 45) Caring OR non-restricting of you? Caring 46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge? Straight? 47) Piercings OR no piercings? Don't care 48) Tattoos OR no tattoos? " " 49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type? Stay-at-home 50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with? That's tough XD preferably both, but maybe in the long run parents Would you: 51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? I don't drink... 52) Smoke weed? Thought about it, but don't think so 53) Smoke cigarettes? No 54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? Hope not 55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? Try 56) Attempt to kill yourself? Have 57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what? Difficult. Currently in a weird place with that, but I try. 58) Join a band as a part time activity? Yes 59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? Yes 60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them? Yes 61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like? Maybe 62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? Yes 63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? Haha, maybe 64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? Hm, would depend 65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a [so and so] to other people? Perhaps 66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them? No 67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them to put up with your problems? Yes 68) Try something new even if you think you won't like it? Yes 69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes, then which part of you and why? No 70) Sleep naked? No You can only choose one: 71) Black or Orange? Black 72) Metal core OR Post-Hardcore? Ooh... that's hard. Maybe post-hardcore? 73) Cellphone or Computer? Computer 74) Chocolate milk OR Coke? Milk 75) Tumblr OR Friends? Friends 76) Apple OR PC? PC 77) TV Shows OR Movies? TV shows 78) Old bands OR new Bands? New 79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock? Alternative 80) Reading OR Listening to music? Music 81) Coke OR Pepsi? Define your reason for your choice. I honestly can't tell the difference... 82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically? That's tough. On the one hand, I want to be authentic... but then I really don't like myself either >.< I don't know. 83) Tea OR coffee? Neither :P Guess tea though 84) Music OR quiet? Music 85) Emailing OR letter-writing? Email 86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary? Documentary 87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe? Europe! 88) Shoes OR Shirts? Shirts 89) Bracelets OR necklaces? Bracelets 90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education? Define your reason for your choice. Stay at school. I think that would just be the better option for me, as far as career choices and whatnot. Almost over: 91) So far have you told 90 truths? And be honest. Yes 92) Are you quiet when you are with your friends/family or are you loud/hyper/open/sociable? Quiet. Used to be louder. 93) Do you want to travel? Yes 94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams? That's hard. I'd like to say no, but I'm not sure. And then again, I don't really know what dreams I do/would have. 95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions? Yes, I was a bit surprised 96) Rather be the opposite gender? Haha, used to want to be XD Don't anymore 97) What will you name your son/daughter? No clue. You'd have to ask my husband XD 98) How many kids would you like, and preferably, how many girls and how many boys? shrugs Thinking about adopting. Not sure I'd want to have my own kids. 99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason. Miley Cyrus. I just don't really like her... her music, or as a person. It all just seems so fake and "teen idol." 100) What makes someone a bad person in your mind? Being hypocritical and judgmental, maybe 101) Do you feel like you're a bad person? Yup
	"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.