Didn't go to A&E. Friend mentioned it but I convinced her I was fine. I have DBT tomorrow with my psychiatrist. Gonna try to explain to him. Thing have taken a massive leap into crazytown. OCD. Suicide. Self-harm. Need something. Not sure what though.
Feel let down and useless. Really can't see carrying on. Gonna tell my psych tomorrow but is last chance. If I can't get support then I'm pretty much already dead.
I honestly, 100% believe that if I don't die the world is going to come to an end. I am the reason things keep happening. All the bad stuff in the universe is because me being alive is keeping the universe out of balance. Need to die if people are going to be able to live.
Blah. I suck.
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