[TheGiantPanda]

I had be signed off for a month with depression, i went back on tuesday. Im really struggling, i keep crying at work and taking time out in the toilets to get myself together. Ive just been sent home early today as ive been so upset.

They are really supportive and im fortunate enough that i know the manager, shes an old family friend. She had a chat with me when i got signed off, she was lovely. Im going to talk to her when she gets back off holiday.

I wanted to get back to work so i can keep busy ang thought would be better for me, but im finding it really hard and am getting the opposite effect.

Im not sure wether to go back to the doctor and try and get another month off. My department manager said he thought i had come back a bit early, and im beginning to think that too. Im just so scared of loosing my job or ending up back on benefits. Ive been trying so hard to overcome stuff, really trying but its not working :(

Im fed up with crying all the time and feeling so rubbish. I keep trying to do things i enjoy and surrounding myself with good friends and family but it just doesnt shift how im feeling, the underlying sadness is still there.

Ive been prescribed citalopram alongside my olanzapine, but it made me feel a bit fluey so i stopped taking it, hoping that i could battle through it without the need for more drugs, but im tempted to take it again and hope that the fluey feeling was just the initial side effects. I had taken 2 days worth, is the fluey feeling like chills and stuff temporary does anybody know?

Has anybody else gone back to work after being off sick, but found it was too soon? Or did you found it helped?