Complete lack of will to do anything. Heavy limbs, tired like recovering from the flu or something. Little energy and everything seems to expend too much energy which I have little of to start with.
Feeling like there is no point to everything, and that it would be easier for others if I didn't exist. Very hard to motivate to do anything because I can't convince myself that I'll be around to see the effects.
Limited range of emotions - pretty much just sadness and anxiety although these often would go and then there would be vast periods of nothingness/ emptiness.
Unable to plan things in advance. I've noticed this creep up on me slowly, unable to picture myself in the future, not even a day ahead, I don't feel like I'll really be there.
Now I am starting to experience depression again after a year and a half recovered from severe depression, it's really disconcerting. In my mind I know rationally I know of the things that are important to me and that I care about, or the activities that used to bring me joy, but emotionally I feel nothing towards them.
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