I can understand this, I don't have chronic problems with burning, but doing it once and going to the burns unit left me feeling strange and uncomfortable when the wound finally healed months later.
I guess the way this occurs in part is because you get used to having an open wound [burns take so long to heal anyway] and become psychologically reliant on the idea that you need it to manage. Keep fighting, list all the reasons, both positive of not harming and negative of harming and keep it with you, read it everyday, take a bit of time to remember how shitty having dressings on all the time is; never being able to wear short sleeved clothes/shorts and being hot, uncomfortable and having the pain in ass job of looking after the wound or dealing with an infection.
If you cannot think any other way, at least for now, tell yourself this is a trial. If you really hate and cannot cope with not burning, you can always still burn. If you just try not to for a while, maybe you'll realize that it is possible to live and survive without wounds. You managed it before you started burning regularly.
It can be done. Enjoy having a bath without having to stick a limb out or shower with a bag on all the time. Buy some new clothes to encourage you to wear short sleeves/not burn. Or, if you cant face that to start with, cover your limb with a light bandage to ween off the sensation of having dressings there. Reduce the time you use them to hopefully get used to not having them. This does not work for everyone, but its an idea.
Best of luck xx
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