Hi Katy,
Just wanted to drop in and say that I honestly think you've done the best thing at the time. I've been on shitty wards before and really, if you are somewhere like that even if you are unsafe in the community being there is unlikely to help on any level. Even if they staff are well intentioned and just unstaffed, that is not your problem and you deserve the right kind of care and it should be consistent. Try and not give yourself a hard time about it, it was not your fault, nor is it your fault for being ill or going through a hard time right now.
I've also been so dependent on being able to do my course(s) and when I got kicked out of training for being ill it felt like the end of the world. It was horrific. This will be really hard to see but when you are stronger you will be able to either go back or find something that you feel as passionate about. For me, I could never go back to what I was doing before just because of the nature of being ill and how demanding it was, but now I am doing something that I can both handle and I get a lot out of. I know it's hard but try and put that aside for now.
If hope you do get offered something like a female ward closer to you. To be honest you should have already been offered this. At the very least if there were not beds in your area they should have given you a the closest female bed, in a private hosp if need be.
And I doubt this counts for much but I'm certainly not mad at you or anything :) Please know my PM box is open (I'm inpatient myself so might take longer than normal to get back but I def will)
Go slow, thinking of you xxx
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