Since you picked the tree of course it will always be something that catches your attention - you picked the tree, that area, those branches. It won't move, and you will always see that tree as is, and think about it as you walk closer. It probably feels awkward in some way, or feels something - that you can't change, and trying to ignore it if you ever want to will only make things worse.
So. Things can work in a few ways;
1) Try to ignore it, though you never will.
2) Accept you picked this tree and always keep that in mind.
Or 3) You can make this work to the best way possible. Firstly you need to accept that you picked this tree and that it will never be just another tree. But to keep it like that in mind will always be an issue. So you need to try and warp your vision on it. It takes time, but will eventually work. It's just a tree. Trees are destroyed and pulled down. They die. They are birthed and grown over hundreds of years. It's still just a tree. You picked it in the heat of the moment. But you know what? You're typing to us. You're still here. That tree you picked to take a life? You denied it that, didn't you? You look at it now, whenever you pass, and it's just there, but you are still walking past it, thinking about it. That tree will die, or stand a long time. Either way, it didn't take your life, it didn't take power over you and take you away. You pointed a finger, said bad things, gave it an option. And it failed. The tree failed. And you are still here, before this tree.
You thought you gave it an option. You simply proved yourself stronger.
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