Hey Anti-Hero,
Wow, things sound like they are quite difficult and have certainly been very intense for you, too. Does the uni counsellor know how much you're struggling with things at the moment? Although she is not able to diagnose you, she is still qualified to listen to your difficulties about all these emotions and help you find ways to manage the feelings (especially so that you'll be able to work with these people next semester).
The psychologist you saw earlier this year, did they have anything helpful to say regarding treatment and support for you?
All I can say is don't give up, I know things are difficult now but they will get better. Getting grades back can be super challenging and while it feels so intense now, this intensity will ease. But it sounds like that weekend and the assignment were practicularly difficult for you with anger and self-harm, so if you're able to speak to a professional about managing these emotions that would be a great step.
Take care x
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