[Lost But Never Found 15]

Hey guys... long time no see... i haven't been on here in like, a year!:O this is actually crazy... im so sorry i left you guys :( i dont know what happened, i kinda got on with my life, i 'recovered' from self harm, pretty much straight after my mum found out about it. and was a whole year free!:O massive shock!:L never thought i would be able to say that... anyways, i got into a serious relationship... well, i say serious, he was a serious ass if that counts?:L but yeah, went through the whole 'love' thing... then he broke up with me... absolutely killed me... and bam... i was back to square one... i have self harmed recently, only told my bestfriend who i used to speak to before i got better... but i am determined to stop. Today, i am throwing my 'tools' away, and i WILL get better.

i was also going through a load of old photos, and came across a picture of my wrist about a month after i stopped, and it is horrific.. and then i just took a quick look at how they look now, and i smiled to myself and said 'you did it, you actually did it'

Anyone on here that doesnt think they can't do it too... i promise you, you can, and it may only be for a few months, years or what ever, but you can and one day, you will be completely rid of it... :)
i love you all and im so sorry for not coming on here, i guess i felt like i didnt need it any more, and that i needed to do it by myself.. but yeah, i missed you guys!