[earthbound_misfit]

I have tried explaining to them, and so has my boyfriend, but they just label any attempt to get help as 'attention-seeking', if I contact PALS (patient advice and liaision service) or anyone else it's seen as 'manipulative' and even PALS have picked up on their hatred of me and are being useless and unsympathetic. Everyone just sends me to someone else. Apparently I've been referred now to 'support services' which is things to help you day-to-day and encourage you to do things like uni, go back to work, etc. This sounds great as support, but they are ignoring the elephant in the room of my depression and awful feelings inside that mess with my sleep and worsen the depression, which is the reason I struggle so much day to day. It's not support I need - my boyfriend is really supportive, as are some friends - it's actual treatment I am lacking. My life is not unstable, I am housed, have friends, etc. I just can't seem to get much done or move towards work or anything with these awful feelings and exhausted lethargy all the time.
It's a bit like having a badly broken leg and being offered someone to help do the shopping and stuff, but no-one to set the leg and put it in plaster so I can do that stuff myself! I just want to get better, and I have learnt through bitter experience that doesn't happen magically over time, but will require in-depth therapy. I have done as much as is possible on my own.

I'm not sure when I was first labelled attention seeking, it'll go with the BPD misdiagnosis (and it IS a misdiagnosis; when they tested me properly with the questionnaires and stuff I didn't have it, but it's impossible to remove from records).
I first went to the doctors with depression aged 17, but it wasn't until I was 19 I seriously tried to get help. (I moved away from my parents at 18 and had thought I'd be happy away from that situation).
I thought mental health services would be helpful and understanding, and was shocked at the way I was treated. Anyone with a BPD diagnosis was ignored, and they seemed to slap the diagnosis on an awful lot of people without properly assessing them.
Anyway since then I have tried twice to get help (I now live in a different area) but the judgements and layers of lies built upon misconceptions are all over my notes, so no-one will help, they just see 'incurable person' rather than 'person repeatedly denied help'