[Japan_Freak]

My family? They're so loud and always yelling. My sister takes an advanced English class, so my parents are always fighting with her because she doesn't do her work. I wanted to get in the class soo bad, and it's because of me that she's in it, but they didn't accept me. She just throws all her work around and complains about how much she hates it. I have to do all the chores because she's 'doing her homework' when she's really on YouTube and facebook. I have to clean her and I's room (idk about that grammar) and do the dishes and vacuum and clean the house because she 'working'. I can't practice my piano or flute or watch tv or use the computer because she's 'working'. Then I get in trouble for not practicing or having my homework done and spending so much time in my room. I don't even wanna talk about my dad....


I guess when I first started it was because I couldn't get away from all the noise and yelling because my parents are over-protective and won't let me go anywhere by myself. Cause usually I would just go for a walk. I knew how to deal with things on my own; I've never been big on 'expressing my feelings'. But I couldn't get away. So I did it. And I felt surprisingly better so I keep doing it when they go at it or I've disappointed them, ect. But I think now its moving away from an escape and turning into an addiction. I think now I do it just to feel numb (or feel anything) but in a way I guess that is kind of an escape. So that's the best I can explain it right now.