*snuggles into you*
i do try and remember that hurting me and running away wont help i really do, but sometimes when voices and thoughts are so bad i lose that logical perspective and end up acting on them.
im currently waiting for a call from the hospital to let me know they have a bed for me, i dont want to go in but i think its the only chance of stopping or minimizing the voices. i cant carry on like this, ive lost all my energy to fight now i just want it over,
my mood is so low at the moment and i feel very depressed and unsafe, even my carer is struggling with me at the moment because things have got so bad, if im out of her sight for longer than 5 minutes shes looking for me, i dont think she trusts me.
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