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Anxiety.
I have anxiety about going out of the house, especially at certain times. I can go out with a friend, or I can go for a jog without anxiety. But when I walk outside, even to the shops or to Morden, I get overwhelming anxiety. Going down to Sutton or up to central London is something I haven't done on my own for well over a year.
The anxiety manifests itself as noises being too loud, lights too bright, temperature too hot etc; everything seems amplified. To make it worse, I get paranoid that everyone is staring at me, laughing at me, and talking about me. I even see people pointing at me.
I also get anxiety over things like counting things I do (it has to be a prime number), even sips of tea.
It was yesterday when I managed to start realising that I don't have to disinfect the house every day and I managed to have one shower, not two.
My question is, is this anxiety related to my autism side of things, or is it more related to my psychosis? I ask because I emailed my psych about this but only realised after I sent the email that if this is related to my psychosis, she will be more able to address the problem than if it is related to autism. As my psych isn't really as knowledgeable about autism as I would like her to be. Comorbid anixety/depression/OCD are common in Asperger's Syndrome.
Also, do you have any tips for me on how I can battle this anxiety? Because it is preventing me from leaving the house.
Thanks.
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