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preciousandfragile · 15-10-2007, 04:58 AM

so i am pretty ****ed up...

i have been for a while..but that is besides the point

for quite some time i havent been able to sleep... rather i am afraid to go to sleep...i cant sleep...i have too many ****ing nightmares of what is going on in me and to me and around me.. neways..they make it freaking impossible for me to sleep...which is bad because i am tired the next moring and then i miss class which is bad becuz if i miss ne more class my grades will drop even more.

so yes..these nightmares..i see myself cutting...bleeding to death...being hit..and just reliving everything that i have done or seen or been thru in the past. but besides things that i real, i see in my nightmares myself as this monster..this hideous thing...trying to kill everyione including myself and just taking over everything and going ****ing insane.....it scares me so much that i cry myself to sleep...

i am afraid to go to sleep tonight...lots of ****ed up shitty things happened today....

but most of all i am afraid...afraid of myself..

can anybody help me????

how do i make these monsters go away??

15-10-2007, 04:58 AM	#1
preciousandfragile Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: California I am currently:	Nightmares...?? help please trigger so i am pretty **ed up... i have been for a while..but that is besides the point for quite some time i havent been able to sleep... rather i am afraid to go to sleep...i cant sleep...i have too many ing nightmares of what is going on in me and to me and around me.. neways..they make it freaking impossible for me to sleep...which is bad because i am tired the next moring and then i miss class which is bad becuz if i miss ne more class my grades will drop even more. so yes..these nightmares..i see myself cutting...bleeding to death...being hit..and just reliving everything that i have done or seen or been thru in the past. but besides things that i real, i see in my nightmares myself as this monster..this hideous thing...trying to kill everyione including myself and just taking over everything and going ing insane.....it scares me so much that i cry myself to sleep... i am afraid to go to sleep tonight...lots of **ed up shitty things happened today.... but most of all i am afraid...afraid of myself.. can anybody help me???? how do i make these monsters go away??
	in other traditions demons are expelled externally, but in my tradition demons are accepted with compassion. - Machik Labdron they were perfect, they were beautiful. they met in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of nothing, and kissed where everyone could see. no words. no before. no after. they kissed and it was perfect. it was beautiful. it was everything. it was nothing.