Hi kim no i dont think we talked before. I feel so low. I really feel like going out and buying loads and taking the lot. I did that last time but it wasnt enough. I threw up blood though thats not a very good sign i dont think im not sure. I cant collect anymore my mum watches me take my meds and she has hidden them. But i feel like going out and buying loads. I just feel like im going back to where i started again. I feel miserable and deppressed. I keep tellin gmyself i can do this but i dunno that i cant anymore. I dont know how much longer i can stay strong or even fight this. Iv got worse again as the day has gone on. I have two counsellers and numbers that i can ring but im scared. All i wante din life was some friends that cared i thought that when i went to college id got the most brilliant friends everr but im not so sure. Some days are worse than others some are not too bad some are really bad. I cant live like this i no i cant.
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