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Ihavetobelieve33 · 26-04-2012, 11:13 PM

Hi everybody,

I just cannot let cutting go. I have thrown my things away but then in a scramble it seems I have to find more means to cut. Cutting for me is punishment, numbness ceasing, and desperation. I want to cut so, so badly, but I do not like having so many scars. It may sound stupid.. like "well if you don't want scars then stop cutting, duh?!"

It's just simply not that easy... I want to wear short sleeves again. I don't want to be ashamed of myself. I don't want to feel numb. I want to live now. And at this moment, cutting... isn't helping that.

26-04-2012, 11:13 PM	#1
Ihavetobelieve33 The pain is never-ending. Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: USA I am currently:	cant let cutting go Hi everybody, I just cannot let cutting go. I have thrown my things away but then in a scramble it seems I have to find more means to cut. Cutting for me is punishment, numbness ceasing, and desperation. I want to cut so, so badly, but I do not like having so many scars. It may sound stupid.. like "well if you don't want scars then stop cutting, duh?!" It's just simply not that easy... I want to wear short sleeves again. I don't want to be ashamed of myself. I don't want to feel numb. I want to live now. And at this moment, cutting... isn't helping that.