I looked down at my arms and I automatically thought yes, because they make me feel ugly but I step back and look over the past couple of years and I realize I have no regrets over my cutting. If I didn't have it as a vice I would not have survived, I know I would have killed myself. I've already had four attempts and if I didn't cut every time I needed to I would have been bursting at the seams and so much more readily headed straight to the drugs and alcohol. So infact, I'm incredibly thankful for cutting, it saved me when the situation exceeded my recourses for coping.
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