[when.will.it.end]

I'm in my second year and I fought so hard to stay on my course and not leave, despite hospitals and admissions and threats from uni but I've had 3 marks back this year and they've all been awful. I'm freaking out because I can't tell anyone; everyone thinks that I'm clever and expects me to do well. Last year I did three essays & three exams whilst I was in hospital and did well on all of them. This year I'm more well & out of hospital and my marks have never been lower. I'm so ashamed, what the hell am I going to do? This is my last chance to do my degree because I've used up all my funding thanks to taking time out, repeating years etc. I'm terrified that everyone will find out my marks; doctors, family, friends and they are all expecting firsts. Kill me now.