I don't have much practical advice but I read your post and I want you to know that there are always ways to get out, suicide is not your only option.
I can relate to your situation but also not understand what you are going through. Years ago I thought that I either stayed with my family and committed suicide or left them and lived. So I left.
I would focus your energy on finding a way of getting out as quickly as possible, alive. There will be ways. It must be hard or almost impossible to see right now but it is possible. There are always ways to get out.
Don't give up. You're doing the right thing but sticking to what you believe in.
|