It sounds as though you are trying really really hard and that is not something to be taken lightly at all. It is a real struggle to daily, hourly fight and counter-act the voices that say such negative horrid things.
I'm sorry that you SH'd 2 weeks ago but at the same time I hope you don't see it as you starting back at the beginning again. I don't like the idea of counting or timing the time between SH episodes as it seems like when a person does self harm it eradicates every single day and hour and thought that was beaten! To beat the voices once is a major accomplishment, to do it for 9 weeks is amazing. I hope you can see that yourself.
Your mum sounds so caring and loving, you must feel very blessed to have her. Please don't be ashamed for having to sleep in her room to feel safe, - it is a really brave thing to do, to admit feeling scared and ask for help - not many people are able to do that! And that you have someone who can offer you a safe place is fantastic. And just because for now you need it doesn't mean you will forever, when you feel ready and able to you will be able to sleep more regularly on your own, but I don't think you should rush it because you feel ashamed.
I hope you find the support you need here. It sounds as though you are battling very hard.
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