It does sound like you could be experiencing anxiety and depression. However, we can't diagnose you with anything on this website.
Regardless, it sounds like it is something you struggle with and makes life difficult for you to enjoy. Especially with the prospect of starting university.
Can I ask why you don't want to speak to a professional? It can be very scary speaking to a counsellor but it can also make a big difference. I think you should seek help. You deserve to enjoy a good & happy life & not to have these difficult emotions in what should be 'normal' circumstances.
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