[LauraLeopard]

Hiya, i am just writing on here for some advice or to see if anyone can relate to me abit...

As i have posted here before, i suffer from selective mutism and severe anxiety. I was in town and it was very busy which caused me to have a major panic attack in boots. I was crying and i went into an empty isle and self harmed. Unknown to me security had seen all this on the CCTV and called an ambulance, when the ambulance showed up so did the police. This made extra stressed and i went into total meltdown. Longs and shorts of it are i ended up being detained by the police, and handcuffed "for my own safety" this caused to to become very distressed and i cannot communicate with people i don't know though words and my upset caused me to start struggling and resisiting as i had no other way to tell them how i was feeling.

I was then told that i was too violent for the 136 suite and that they were taking me to custody. At this point i could not stop crying and they were short with me and told me to stop crying and that it was my fault i got detained as i cleary had nothing to say for myself (Though to be fair at this point they were unaware i have SM) I then started to kick the seat of the car and ended up having leg ties put on me :/

When we got to custody everyone was very rude, i was yelled at for not speaking told to stop misbehaving and speak until they un-handcuffed me and i made a writing gesture at which point i wrote down why i couldn't speak and how i was feeling. To be fair the person who yelled at me apologized.

I ended up being left in a cell for 9 hours until i could be assesed and all they said in the assesment was that they were going to put me in contact with the crisis team (someone is coming to see me tomorrow) and go from there. I feel like i've been given no help or understanding thoughout the whole situation and im now home feeling awful. Has anyone else had any similar experiances or can someone offer me advice on helping to prevent this sort of thing happening again?